Category Archives: Poems

“Hurt”

I have never felt this angry at my dad in my life. Not while he was abusing me. Not when he chose to never tell anyone. Not when he acted surprised that I was affected by the abuse. Not when he acted frustrated with me because he feels the right to have a relationship withContinue reading ““Hurt””

walking to class

soft raindrops fall into puddles on the pavement. a serene scene. she quickly walks through the peaceful setting. climbing up the stairs, her heartbeat quickens. she loses control. she walks past the classroom door. she almost made it to her class, now she is in the bathroom on the floor.     so unlike the raindrops outside,Continue reading “walking to class”

dear dad, isn’t it ironic?

dear dad, you are the one meant to protect, to love, to be trusted. you are the one meant to support, to comfort, to be there. where are you? you are not here. you are alone. i wasn’t safe around you, i needed protection. i fell apart around you, i needed support. isn’t it ironicContinue reading “dear dad, isn’t it ironic?”

In Church

TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Abuse I saw a guitar and thought of you. When you used to play your guitar the tension in my body lessened. Either because you made beautiful music or because it meant your hands were occupied. Better to caress the strings of a guitar than the skin of your daughter. Better toContinue reading “In Church“

Loss

The empty leather recliner or the head of the kitchen table—another empty chair. Mom makes food, but we have extras. When together my family asks, “is this everyone?” On graduation day, I get a look of pride from my mom, but it feels strange that you can’t even celebrate this with me. When I getContinue reading “Loss“